I've been howling a paper moon, well fuck you.

How utterly fucking silly, I can only apologize for whatever it is I did so right to put yourself in the position you were in, this blog is directed to a few people, but brought on by only one person, and I will surely admit I am drunk at 7:30a.m., Chris and Kelli were here earlier today, and I act really clean and straight cut around them, I don't know if they even know or not, but I sadly must admit to being a fucking alcoholic, I don't feel normal without being drunk, given I will never be drunk around my daughter, that doesn't change the fact that she lives with MY MOM, because her mom and myself can't hold it together, this whole online thing has certainly been an experience in the past years, but nothing like this, EVER, has come about, I'm fairly speechless to say the least and sorry really won't cut it, but at the same time, I don't know that I have anything to say 'I'M SORRY' about, my words were taken out of context it seems, having read your blog and thinking "How ridiculous that I'm reading this in A FUCKING BLOG, FROM SOMEONE I MET ON THE GOD DAMN INTERNET" but here I am, as guilty as you, but how do you avoid it? this blog wasn't meant to be nearly this long but it seems a lot more is flowing out then I realized, to another person who may not even ever read this, you have been lead to believe something false, saying I need help for my daughter was quite thoughtful, but the reason you said it was for the wrong reason, social networking will be the demise of the world it seems, people get to comfortable and forget that reality, things you do in your LIFE, are certainly not the same things you do on the internet, you can reintegrate yourself to be whoever you want, and have feelings accordingly, so apposed to saying "FUCK THIS, I'M DONE USING THE INTERNET TO FIND NEW FRIENDS AND COMMUNICATE" I will simply say, take anything I say to you online, with a grain of salt, but at the same time (cough) Rachel...I do enjoy talking to you, you sent me a fucking letter and drew me a radical portrait of myself, how could I do something like I've done in the past towards you? won't happen, if Chris and or Kelli read this, feel free to think "What the fuck Eric..." I don't know what to tell you, I have some strange things going on in my life, obviously, you guys are awesome friends and I'm completely jealous of your hectic relationship, you guys are best fucking friends and hanging out with you guys the past few days has made me think like "What the fuck have I been doing when I could have what these two fucking have!!!???!" self realization is certainly something I need to dig deep into, for now I will sleep, while I can, everyone knows I don't sleep, at all, thus the drinking started, but as you know the first thing an addict does is make an excuse, its not an excuse, its a sad reason, but a reason non the less, sorry dudes.


"My God, the clock's always stuck yellin' 11:11, at 3:32."

-Eric

Dear Chris & Kelli

Make a fucking blog, faggots.

<3

Something funny, I suppose.

A woman has a close male friend. This means that he is probably interested in her, which is why he hangs around so much. She sees him strictly as a friend. This always starts out with, you're a great guy, but I don't like you in that way. This is roughly the equivalent for the guy of going to a job interview and the company saying, You have a great resume, you have all the qualifications we are looking for, but we're not going to hire you. We will, however, use your resume as the basis for comparison for all other applicants. But, we're going to hire somebody who is far less qualified and is probably an alcoholic. And if he doesn't work out, we'll hire somebody else, but still not you. In fact, we will never hire you. But we will call you from time to time to complain about the person that we hired.

Best wishes Chi Cheng.

So somehow I was JUST informed that Deftones bassist Chi Cheng is in a coma following an automobile accident in Santa Clara, CA.on November 4th.

This is saddening to hear being as I have been so influenced by the Deftones for so many years, my musical tastes have changed drastically in the past 3 years, but I've still always listened to the Deftones just as much as I ever have, every one of the members of that band brings so much to the table and it would be a major loss to this world if Chi didn't make it, just thought I would share the news to anyone who is interested and may not know, lets hope for the best
-Eric

"Oooh...well I can float here forever
In this room we cant touch the floor
In here were all anemic
In here - anemic and sweet"

In regards to a request from Kelsey Stevenson

This is an update, I hope you enjoy it, its not too short and not too long, its just right, its not very interesting and hopefully not too boring, I would hate to bore you, really I would, I just don't know what I would do if I knew that I were honestly boring you right now, are you bored? because I am fucking bored of writing this.

I love you Kelsey.

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Now playing: Modest Mouse - Summer

Black Cab Sessions

So a while back I had found a video of Daniel Johnston playing in the back of a black mini cab in down town London, I thought it was pretty cool but never thought much about it since, and recently I came to find that there are many bands who have done this, its a periodic filming of The Black Cab Sessions produced by JustSo Films, they have featured such bands as Death Cab For Cutie, The New Pornographers, and Sunset Rubdown{surprisingly}.

Personally I think it is a fucking great idea and I would love to see more more bands involved in this, but as you may have guessed, I am writing this in hopes that you will check it out because its something very unique in the music industry, and these days, it isn't often I come across something that really impresses me, its always been done before.

I need to check out The Kooks new album, I'm not sure why I haven't yet, fuck, I also need to get 'Narrow Stairs' by Death Cab, that is one band I refuse to pirate, I will purchase every song I listen to by them because they deserve it, they put out nearly 8 full length albums without being on a label, of course last year they signed to Columbia Records, but fuck it, I wouldn't turn down 10 mil either.

If you're reading this, I wish you a great day, if you aren't, then there is no point in me insulting you!!


-Eric

The Next Big Nothing

So as you may or may not know, I have been working on getting my website up lately, and I finally did so, thankfully I have friends that have done this a bit more than I have, I can design them fine, just not so familiar with using FTP, but I'm learning!!

Anyway, so I won't ruin it by telling you what kind of magic is hidden behind the 'COMING SOON' page, but I should have something up by the end of this week so I hope you all get a change to check it out, if not, I am just wasting my fucking TIME AND MONEY!!!!!


-Eric
The Next Big Nothing

Oh yeah and my friend Catherine wants to exchange lap dances for web design :O woooh!
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Now playing: Tenacious D - 04 Wonderboy